alhamdulillah=)

alhamdulillah,all thanks to Allah for giving me happiness.i love u Allah=)..ill try my best to be better muslim in this world and hereafter..Allah maha pengampun dan maha pengasih..really thankful coz i still get what i pray for even ive done many sinful things as a human and muslim..thank u Allah=)..alhamdulillah

a day with my forever man=)

wahhhh!!!!!!! sgt happy hari ni..nape?this is all bcoz of my most handsome man in this world.yup,hari ni die dtg kuantan.saye sgt happy..oh happy happy day*my girl soundtrack*ermmm...lps klas tadi,aku,pah n syara cam biase la kan.pergi ternak lemak kat cafe.aku makan nasi ayam.tibe-tibe, nokia red-blackberry aku bebunyi..aku pun angkat la..die ckp dah sampai..wowowowowowo...hepy3..tapi kan,aku x start makan g.then,aku pun rushing la pegi cari kete kat luar cafe..die sesat!ade ke.uia pun leh sesat..pastu aku pun nampak la MAK 1479..confirm!its him!;).then,aku cakap la aku baru nk stat makan ngan kawan,then die cakap malu la plak.nanti die je laki kat kafe tu.aku pun yang memang dah niat nak makan luar ni pn stuju je(ble lagi kan??)hehe..then,aku pun tapau balik nasi ayam tu since x de sape nak tolong makan(semua jage badan ye!)pastu,aku pun naik la MAK.pastu die tanye aku nak makan mane.then,aku pun suggest la restoren kat TC.die tanye, x jauh ke?walaupun aku dah tau TC agak jauh,tapi aku cakap"x jauh pun"..huhu..jahat jugak..but actually,my intention is nak cari temapat yang boleh lepak2 lepas makan.so,Tc is best choice la.then,pegi la ikot jalan blakang.aku maen redah je sbenanye.x penah pun tunjuk jln tu kat org len before this.pastu dalam kete tu dok borak2 la..macam2 cte kuar.sampai je kat TC,ingat nak makan kat restoren yg aku,anis,lana n ama makan hari tu,tapi tutup plak.ape la restoren ni,org nk bg untung die plak tutup.haish!:(.pastu terpaksela makan gerai biase je.aku ingat nak makan ikan siakap la kan..wuihh..kne melebih-lebih sket ngan my men ni.lepas makan tu,ktorg pun borak2 kat bench yg ade dekat depan toilet tc tu.asal la aku x prasan blakang tu toilet.last2 baru sdar.seb baek x mengadap toilet..huhu..lau tak,x lalu nk duduk pun.kitorg borak2 sambil makan chikadees tau..;)first time aku rase sgt selesa nk meluahkan prasaan kat die.maybe sbb ktorg bdua je kott time tu:).pastu,die ajak nak balik..tapi nak balik mane??hahaha...then ktorg decide la nak stay je kat TC.aku sgt hepy coz my decision nak g makan kat tc tu sgt tepat.tgk,boleh lepak skali.tapi die cakap mengantuk sangat sebab drive dari pagi tadi.then,lau nak sewa hotel cam x worth la kan?lepas tu aku bagi la aku punye spontaneous idea."tdo je la kat atas rumput tepi pokok depan pantai tu".guess what,he's agreed!im soooo happy.never thought that die sangat la slambe badak cam aku gak!haha..thats why i love u;).since rumput tu agak licin n tempat tu pun senget sket,looks like he cant sleep well.but then he tries..;)while he was sleeping,aku lah kne jadi guard kan!cheh bajet2 ade six pack la nak jadi guard nih*tetibe je six pack*agak lame die tdo.about half an hour camtu..tengah2 menjalankan tugas sebagai guard nih,boring la plak mak aih..seb baek ade bwk buku note kecik n pensil.aku pun yang x de kesenian langsung ni pun stat la melukis.i do drawing?????!!!.pelik tapi benar ye!;)

then,ble die bangun je,die mintak tolong aku belikan McD*tlg beli je,ongkos phm2 la ye!hehe..aku suke!aku pun dengan patuhnye jalankan tugas sebagai despatch McD plak..haha.n bcoz i love him so much,i bought him BigMc. i want him to be happy by eating large set of BigMc tapi actually bende tu x elok,tapi skali skala halal je la kan?.Then,makan2 jap depan pantai tu,pastu ktorg gerak la ke bandar kuantan.pegi kedai aksesori kete coz want to fix MAK nye radio.rupe2nye speaker rosak.n mahal jugak la nak tukar.then,die cakap nanti balik bulan 4 la baiki balik.INSYAALLAH..but i cant promise u..hehe..btol la, xde radio..camne aku nak idop??ade kne mengene ke?then,lepas tu g la terminal.singgah kat terminal tomyam dlu.minum2.then,hah sudah,die jumpe geng plak..memang seantero dunia la die ade kawan.bcoz he's soo peramah.n thats another reason why i lovee u much!;)..dah,x layan aku la ble cakp ngan geng.siap dok meja len g.tinggalkan aku kat meja blakang.huhuhuhu..*seb baek geng die support minum.x de la aku nk bengang sgt.haha..lepas meeting ngan geng2 die tadi,kitorg naek la atas terminal tu,nak solat.after solat tu,pegi amek jaket die yang tetinggal kat dalm kete.then,lepak2..cakap bende2 sweet..die tanye aku,balik ble?aku cakap la maybe tgh bln 4 la.then die pun tanye aku.."so,1 march ni xde kat umah la?"sambil tersengih2 sengih.."1 march???"lepas tu baru aku ingat yang birthday die 1 march..apela..dah berumur pun xcited g pasal birtday2 nih..and this is another reason i love so muchhhtake note,dah reason yang ke brape ni..hehe..muah2..pastu turun la kat bawah terminal tu.bas pun nak gerak,die cakap nak naik bas dulu.die suh aku balik dulu coz time tu dah nak dekat kul 7 dah.pastu aku pun pergi la tanpa pandang blakang.Allah je tau perasaan aku time tu....saaangat SEDIHH;)..rase macam x cukup je spend time ngan die slame hampir shari ni..sangat sedih..ABAH,i really love u,miss u so much!kalau boleh x nak abah balik lagi hari ni.ingat boleh la die stay lame sket cni tapi esok die ade keje plak:(.sdeh..i cant stop my tears while writing this post.seriously,aku x penah rase happy camni slame ni.just abah ngan aku je hari ni.doing everything together. bedosela kan lau aku cakap"aku x sanggup kehilangan die"tapi seriously, i cant lose him.so,the thing that i can do now is to pray for him.hope that he is in best of health and panjang umo.i love u abah.my love to you is infinity.i miss u.i miss your smile, i miss your voice,i really reallly miss you..saye takkan jumpe abah yang sporting and sangat happy go lucky like you.abah jare sangat maroh ore.most of the time,u are so supportive.i love you abah;).i still cant stop crying right now:(

finally,..the end

ooopss..x the end lagi..baru lps midsem..huahua..camne la leh tringat plak psl nk mengupdate blog ble tgh dgr lagu miss a nih.hehe..erm..lot things happened lately.erm..let me see..to start with,before midsem break hari tu,saye mangalami tekanan perasaan terhadap pengajian saya*btol kah grammar ni=(..so,bising2 cakap kat org yg aku ni nak tukar kos..boleh dikatakan most of my chingu cam sedih jugak dengar but then diorg x de plak nak paksa jgk aku stay cni.yup,thats why i love u guys.such a very good friends.semua hanya mendoakan yang terbaek untuk aku walaupun dimana aku berada nanti*ayat x leh blah..5pm, i love u guys so much lah!muah3;).even my family pun sometimes try to decide things for me.now, aku paham ape kadang2 org cakap kawan lagi understanding compared to even our parents.but depends la kawan tu kawan camne kan.so,aku pun dgn excitednye drop algebra and bm!why bm???coz im not yet ready for bahasa melayu.fullstop.does it makes sense?poyo!slame ni ko cakap bahase ape huh??abih la 6 RAT*budget shopping kne cut 2 ratus sbulan=(.i think it is one of the right things ive made by dropping algebra coz lau x,possibility nk fail tu 98%=(.but then,right after midsem break hari tu,pegi la jumpe lecturer qs kat gombak.coz before this im planning to change kuliyyah to KAED.but then,ble dah jumpe lecturer tu,and dgr explanation panjang lebar dari die sendiri,ermmmmm.. i think i have to think several times lgi before decide ape2.n skang,ive decided that SAYE X KAN TUKAR KOS,whatever happens in the future,ill never give up to give maths a shot!yeah!!!!!!I LOVE MATHS A LOTTTT;)..insyaAllah..i really do hope that this is the right decision.hope that Allah will help me to go through the challenges that ill face in the future.and now,i really appreciate my uncle's advice"sesusah mane pun bende tu,lau orang lain boleh buat,nape kak yah x leh buat?and in about 70++cts student tu,x semua yang betol2 minat maths.so,dont ever use "saye x minat maths" as the excuse to change course"cam cinta jugak,tetibe plak..sebenci mane pun kte dgn org tu,tapi ble dah lame kenal..kebaikan die mesti terspill jugak..coz,x semua org selalu jahat n x semua org selalu baek.same gak ngan maths.x semua subject maths susah..mesti ade yang u can cope with.IM TRYING TO BE +VE HERE YE!.yes,i can do it!if orang lain boleh buat,x kan la aku x boleh.aku ni orang jugak.bukan orang utan.haha..tetibe tringat junho ckp orang utan..eh,melalut plak..aku akan try survive in cts.plus dgn semua kawan2 yg SGT SUPPORTIVE that ive now, think i can really survive here;).mlas plak nak menaip..anyong!

kawen pakse

warggggggghhhhhhhh!!!!tensyennye aku..nape la tensyen cam ni skali..seyes,aku rase cam x idop je.plizzz laa..kawen pakse tu satu,nk kne survirve dlm marriage ni,ya Allah,punyelah susah.but nothing easy in this mean world!hahaha..cakap senang laa..aku rase cycle idop aku same je.bgn pagi,tanpa memikirkan mase depan.mandi,n then pegi klas..lau klas bm tu menarik la jugak.coz ade sir chow kok kee..die sgt comel;)..tapi ble je sampai je klas core course aka husbands yg aku kne kawen pakse,memang..pergghhhh..pening!actually salah aku coz x pandai nk adapt some situation ngan cepat.contoh la kan,sem ni aku kne study style lain plak.PROBLEM BASED LEARNING.means that lecturer x kan mengajar.discuss among friends je.lau ade pape soalan,boleh tanye b4 midsem n b4 final je;).and just imagine la,my feeling as spoonfeed student for all this while.lost.cam cicak putus ekor.cam x de tmpat nk depends on.cam langit dah runtuh.cam monyet x de tmpat nk bergantung.cam baju x de tmpat nk gantung.cam anak itik hilang mak.cam x de broadband!ade plak..hahaha..dah2.emosi x stabil*wizard background*arrrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhh...im not makhlukhat.im just simple person yg susah sket nk trime ilmu.maybe sebab baynk dose n sometimes i just simply thought that ilmu is just for exam.such short minded person.bodoh.bodoh.bodoh.ape la aku ni.i need my life back.i want it back.SAYE X DE LIFE KAT CNI!tolongla..i really wanna stop living in this fantasy world.why i am like this???why?nande?purke?warggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh*nanges 1000 kali dah*mate dah cam kne sengat ngan tebuan:(.dah le dah start rabun balik.spek transformers plak susah nk cari!arghhh..watever la!bye!stop begging and nagging here.
ps:aku memang solute mathematicians.aku nk paham satu defition pn susah.yup.mmg susah.aku x tau camne aku terjerumus dlm kancah maths ni.argghhh.malas nk pkir..n sape2 yg ingt cts tu course yang low standard,ure totally nk mampos salah coz it is actually the real critical course other than medicine coz u have to understand,be creative and thinks out of the box compared to other course that required you to be memory machine if you want to succes.this cannot be done with mats.even khatam satu buku maths pun,but ure not fully combine with the soul of maths,u cant score in exam*except for certain makhlukhat(gifted person)*semua ini adalah luahan hati semata-mata dan x de mengena yg dah mati tapi kne mengena gak la ngan yang masih hidup;)..wargghhh..SAYE PUAS HATI SKANG.HILANG SATU KILO BEBAN;)

mood saye :( skang

owhhh....bersenang lenang dlm cuti slame ni useless coz bajet pass semua subject ar,x yah study!huahuhuahua..nmpaknye mimpi indah aku hancur ble tgk result sem 1 kat main camp.for the first time in uia,aku fail n kne repeat la kan????huahuhuahua..rase cam babun je!ni gara2 calculuz yg senang dmate susah nk mampos di otak..tgk,aku dah x btol..huahuhuahua..biar ar.aku duk dlm blek.parents aku x tau g result ni.n aku skang tgh mnaip kat cni..good daughter..ure right fatihah,express feeling dlu kat cni is the best way!hmmm...nape la aku x rase nk nanges ble fail ni?mungkin sebab aku ade geng?maybe la kan..but then,deep in my heart,chewah!aku rase cam it deserve me..coz deserve la kan fail with such many fool thing that what ive done.byk kot tuhan je tau..alahai..bedosenye.lau bende2 lagho byk lor,lotih toman nak explain cni..huhuhu..papepun aku harap aku boleh muhasabah la kan diri aku ni to be someone better,insyaAllah..but then,serious,aku x tau what kind of feeling ive now..cam sdeh pn ade..gamaknye,otak aku ngah blank la.cam x leh jawab exam tuh!its freezing with no feeling!emmm...dah2..saye sudah fail calculus.so,nanges cepat!!!;).but then,eventhough aku kne repeat,aku ikhlas tau.tu je aku mampu..aku x copy idea otak org len time exam or quiz..i swear!;)..n i hope that sape2 yg "ter"copy ans org len tu cepat2 la insaf..coz korg x fail sbb korg copy makhlukhat(ramai gak dlm klas aku otak supernatural)..is it called as victory?chewah,victory plak!nways,congratz sape yg dpt resultz "boom boom"(meletop2 cam mak aku goreng ikan rebus tuh)hahaha..x de laa..congrats ye!muhasabah diri le yg aku leh wat skang:(..e.ermmm...let me see ape yg aku kena kurangkan n improvekan sem ni;)
1)of coz la 2PM coz aku dah nk jadi die hard fan dah..but then,lau 2PM dtg kne spend gak mase g tgk diorg!hahaha
2)skype,chit chatting n swaktu dgnnye(assume as face to face lagi masyuk!)
3)kluar(tapi aku mmg x leh x kluar..nk2 atok aku nk bg kete ble entah ni..n ntah bg ke idak ngan result aku cam superbbb nih!)tp kluar should not be the reason why i failed)
4)focus dlm klas..ye!kne focus n lau bleh phmkan tros dlm klas.jgn pospone2:(
5)constant study..hari2 mau study maa..at least x bebankan hari kemudian as in hari exam la kan..
6)bykkan solat taubat dan solat sunat..
7)spend time kat tmpat yg aku rase blh study,study dgn selesanya!ooyeahhhh!
8)since aku minat 2PM je n x terinvolve lagi dlm kancah drama korea,hope that aku x terinvolve la kan..huhu..tp ade je die hard fan ar drama korea..ok je pointer..dah idup die tu je kan.korean n study.blh la..aku ni,study g,shopping g,lepak g,2 pm g,chit chatting g,fb g,semua g la.cam girls generation nye lagu tu..gee gee gee..2pm pun penah nyanyi gak lagu tu ngan other group..tgk2!
9)trime seadanye ur lecturer..be good to them n have good perception about them;)
10)aku rase makan byk pn effect la..haha..ade plak..ermm..aku rase ade coz ble makan byk,duit kuar pn byk,dah namenye boros,ikut perangai syaitan..x elok..ok2,mulai skang aku makan satu meal je mlm..huahuahua
11)exercise..seriously,i really need exercise damn much!n aku harap sem ni aku blh jogging or cycling every weekend at least.
12)stop thinking that"this is not the right time to study".honestly,i do have such kind of blablabla...
hope tu je la..byk bende nk kne improve.yeah..im human nways..ye la,lau monyet yg slau dok ngurat aku tepi tingkap tu,nk curi makanan je keje die..x de keje len dah..dah tau dah..seb baek aku x tolak terjun dr level 4 je..takot geng2 monyet2 spot blek aku plak nnti.dah2 merepeknye nek!erm..nk g awal sket.dlm 11 aibln dah btolak.sampai awal,kemas blek awal.study awal?insyaAllah..

Protein Data Bank(PDB)

This picture shows 5 combination of protein molecular structure.



It consist of:
1)Classification: Hydrolase
Structure Weight: 45734.80
Polymer: 1 Type: polypeptide(L) Length: 197
Chains: A, B

2)Classification: Transferase/rna
Structure Weight: 57345.33
Molecule: 3D polymerase
Polymer: 1 Type: polypeptide(L) Length: 476
Chains: A
Type: polyribonucleotide Length: 7
Chains: B

3)Classification: Transferase/rna
Structure Weight: 56838.88
Molecule: 3D polymerase
Polymer: 1 Type: polypeptide(L) Length: 476
Chains: A
Polymer: 2 Type: polyribonucleotide Length: 6
Chains: B
Polymer: 3 Type: polyribonucleotide Length: 4
Chains: C

4)Classification: Hydrolase
Structure Weight: 50432.88
Molecule: MTA/SAH nucleosidase
Polymer: 1 Type: polypeptide(L) Length: 234


5)Classification: Hydrolase
Structure Weight: 45996.32
Molecule: DNA mismatch repair protein mutL
Polymer: 1 Type: polypeptide(L) Length: 197
Chains: A, B

first ramadhan

ari ni first day puase.actually dah nk masuk 2 dah..brape jam je g..:)smlm mmg gle2 nye penat.sampai x g trawih..ya Allah,cmne la agaknye slase next week.mintak2 la x penat sgt till otak pn rase cam x btol.credits to akeen coz really supporting me.ble ak ckp x g trawih tu,shes the one that really understand me.x mcm some people yg rase ak ni trok sgt sbb x g trawih.nways,bln puase ni kan,ill apologized them and wat2 cam nothing happens eventhough sgt la trase..really2 homesick.nk blk sgt.nk bukak puase ngan family.huhu..tadi bukak puase ngan roti n ruski je.mls nk turun ke kafe dr level 4 n plus another 500 m..huhu..wonder if my parent knows this.confem kne marah.asal la along ni pemalas sgt.but then,x de mood kan??ari ni gak ak rase trokk sgt2.rase cam x penah g klas plak.i failed in no theory quiz!33/100.cam bodoh je kan?tapi kne la trime kebodohan ni as cabaran untk jadi pandai cam org len.seyes,its not worth it at all.cam x study plak.but then,kne la trime since x ley ubah ape2 dh.midsem nnti,insyaAllah ill improves.try la revise blk memory ni kan.wonder what ive done smpai kuiz trok camni skali.and finally, i think i knew it.byk sgt lepak kot.hang out every weekend.x de minggu pn yg ak x kuar n x blk.every week mesti lepak mane.n now,rase sgt bsyukur x dpt kete.lau x,im so sure that ill not be in mahallah most of the time.merayap je keje..huhu..so,di bln puase yg penuh barakah ni,ak rase ak nk capai aim bln lps2:
1)bace Quran as much as i can
2)g trawih as much as i can gak(even fisrt trawih pn dah trmiss,but then,ill try my best to fullfill the other trawih unless ade reason pompuan la kan?)
3)sahur hari-hari coz lau x sahur,my mom will bisng2
4)study tu biar berkualiti,not kuantiti anymore since mase di bln puase ni begitu singkat..
5)less gle2.wat penat je jadi gle2 bln2 pose nih..hehe
6)kurangkan bcakap bende2 yg x de pekdah..contohnye,kdg2 ade gak ak terlaser sket mulut nih.x brmaksud pn.senang cte,kurangkan cakap skit la..
exam is just around the corner.the only way that i could do is just study and pray..really hope that ill get bless from Allah in this holy month.ya Allah,bantulah hambamu yg lemah ini..amin...:)