well,since dah lame dok kat umah ni,about 5 months i think, cam mlas lak nk p continue my studies kat kuantan.but then,study kne study gak.x kan la ak jd penganggur trhormat lak.cuti ni x la rase boring tahap gle2 gaban sgt ak rase coz my day mmg full of keje.cam bibik pn ade gak keje ak .tapi better la dr ak dok goyang kaki cam badak dok tunggu nk berendam ka?(ade ke?)..bkn bibik gak la.campur2.kdg2 bibik n kadang driver mam2 bsr..my mom n adik2.x pe la kan.wat amal skali skale..byk yg ak blaja from cuti ni.bkn theory tau!ni pasl idup.from cuti ni ak dah dpt discover yg kte x ley jadi selfish sgt.maksud ak,jgn merajuk x bertempat.tp tu la ak.suke mrajuk ngan abah.huhu..konon2 nk tunjuk manje2 la.kte x tau ape yg die pk.actually,others sometimes dont want to express their probs kat kte.but then,ble kte tambah masalah diorg dgn merajuk or watever,sometimes it will make them burst n kluar abih la semua masalah die tu kat kte.then,dr situ br kte rase bsalah n sedar that weve done wrong.ape ak tulis ni.biarla.ak sorng je pn yg phm.so,moral of da story,jgn suke marajuk...hmmm..hari ni genap sbulan b4 g kuantan campus.uia gak la kan?tp x prepare pe pn g!huhuhuhu..cam mls lak,seriously.actually ak x suke wat keje last minute.but sometimes environment forces..cheh,btol ke?since dh lame ak x msk klas eng ni,mmg bkarat ijau la kan?hmmm...ak takot sbenanye.ye la,dh lame x deal ngan org other than my family.kwn2 pn jrg2 kan.well,i ni kan family first pape pn..hehe..takot gak my communication skill nnti cmne.mmg confem sure lagi pasti akn byk tahap gaban n otomen presentation.huhu..kne la sabo ye Fatihah oi..pape pn ble kte pk +ve,semua bende jalan....prinsip ak gak tuh."alwayz be +ve".tp biasenye ak ni byk -venye..huhu..ape yg ak dah prepare eh?lets wat check list
1:print pape yg perlu print?CHECK!
2:gambar pasport cun ak?
3:buku mane nk bwk?
4:my needs?
5:bukak account?
6:byr rm310?
7:ptptn?
dah2.ni btr 7 kot,satu je yg dh check!huhu..ble la nak wat semo nih..tp kne wat la gak b4 next month.ak x kesah la sape nk p antar ak asal my parents ade.they very precious to me..lau la parents ak bace nih..cheh!bajet diorg trharu n bg duit lbey skat la tuh!haihhh...stop2 mengarut.but then sincerely,i really want to see them happy.although my abah n ma,both of them ade sakitnye.my abah kne diabetes n my ma plak x brape chat.hope that they always be strong for their anak2 sume.luv u both..xoxo..hope also that abah tbukak hati nk p check clinique.wonder if im working.for sure ak beli alat test gule dlm darah.hehe..bebuih dah mulut dok nasehat pi klinik.mane la nk dgr..rase cam nk bg ubat tdo n angkat p klinik je..haih!mintak2 la kan..bkn nk jd ank durhaka,tp anak yg concern n love u so much!ok la,org yg kuno ni br nk smbung cte jepun,hanakimi..adios!

su di

hari ni-3 april 2010.genap stahun since my late uncle meninggal that is on 3rd april 2009.i think i really can recall what was happen on the that day..i really bare it in my mind..still fresh..su di.ble ive got phone calls and message asking this n that about su di.i still remember that ive send him a message.its the last message ive send him n i got the replied message from him where ive deleted it..damn!i really regret!why i spontaneously deleted his message though ive realize someting weird with the message.he type his last word to me.."beyeh jah yah"..its about 12.30 pm..about an hour+++ before he had the accident that takes his soul away from this world...he's so kind coz he never said no to me altough he's busy..for him,everything is ok if its about me.he's like father to me.treat me like his own daughter since he has no child.really miss his caring n fatherly....but then,really sorry that sometimes,i feel that u are still here..many times ive dreamt about u.su di hidup balik,that is not logic at at all..but then,it happens to me..really sorry coz i cant sedekahkan al-fatihah selalu.coz sometimes i really dont feel that uve gone forever.betapa bdosanya..ya Allah..tolong la hambamu yg alpa dan leka ini..berilah hidayah pada hambamu ini..:(

my last sem at cfs

last week was my last sem at cfs iium,insyaAllah..n i reealize that about 1 1/2 ive been studied there.ive been going trough 4 long sem and a short sem there..theres many happy n sad memories that ive been trough..erm..let me make short rewind what had already happened since ive been studied there..0n 22 june 2009, it was the first time where i came here as a student bcoz usually i just followed my late uncle to his office as visitor...that day,my dad,my grandparent,my aunt n uncle came to send me at cfs n really sad coz my mum cant join them bcoz she was just deliver my eldest sister,aikha :(..i just be a student that started to learn everything from zero n get new experience since ive never been in hostel before coz im not a student from boarding school or what..just common sek men keb..but never mind..everyone is the same there..they're in same place n same class,same standard..so,nothing to be ashamed of rite?in first sem,i just trying to make myself comfortable with the environment that ive never had before n alhamdulillah,its going well..but then,i cant get the pointer that can be proud of..a bit sad n regret.in second sem,i think i can finally makes myself comfortable with the environment although ive to change mahallah n rumets..but then luckily ive got awesome rumets..:)..my pointer rises since i think ive struggle hard to reach at the stage..really thanked to Allah..third sem,once again,ive got new rumets.all of them are second year students.but then i feel really comfortable with them..they treat me well n sometimes ive the chance to be a little bit pampered..lol..n during dis sem also,ive been going trough real hard moment where i lost my beloved uncle..su di..my father eldest brother.dont want to talk much about that since it will makes me finally cry while writing this..alhamdulillah,once again,my pointer rises n i think its a miracle from Allah coz eventhough i skip some class,n missed in lot things,i still get the pointer that can be proud of..:)..then,my forth sem..erm..i think its just normal n nothing special about the sem..n last week,ive finish up my last sem at cfs,that is my fifth sem.really..really sad to left cfs n my awesome classmate..but then,whatever it is,ive to accept it..it is the place that left a lot of memories of my uncle..the cafe,his office that is the place that i love to hang out..the ice cream..the ayam kfc n all that..its really...............erm..but then, ill always pay a visit to cfs someday..i really dont want the memories with him fades away...n finally,i want to write about my awesome classmate..seriously,theyre so awesome, kind n....my besties,anis,akeen n syaraf..n more..:)..they're really supportive n positive..lol..dont know what to describe about them..but then our ukhuwah between class members in dis last sem is sooo strong n i hope that it will last forever n ever..insyaAllah..n now,ill having very long long holiday coz maybe ill enter kuantan on june insyaAllah..hope ill get gud result..amin..n now,im thinking about taking part time job,but then i dont know how to get started..but ill try la..:)

acid n base???

what's the meaning of acid n base??i think most people even my std 4 sis can answer the question..but then,when it comes to buffer,acid base titration,it will be more complicated as i thought it so for this time being..its so confusing.ive read the notes many times,i think,but it is still not stick to my memory..not exactly rite coz i more prefer understanding than memorizing.i really hate it when ive to memorize something without knowing why i have to do so.in this case,i know the steps to solve the equation,but then,i really have no clue what im doing..its just like i just know the steps to the question,but cant explain further why im using this n that.to make it simpler,it can be assume as short term memory..hate it!!i really need to study n make the topic to be as simple as possible like i did in equilibrium chapter.ill still remember some of the thing that ive created the formula t0 memorize n understand.i shud minimizing my on9 hour like fb,ym,blogging n watever lg that mkes me more "lagho"..=p..dah2..nk study adios~~~

why???

wanna ask myself..why am i here,at cfs uia??why ive to study??why ive to do the tutorial??why ive to attend class??why ive to do presentation???why ive to be so stress??why ive to do what usual people do??is it myself???why??i cant answer my own question..plz la..rite now, i dont really know myself either..whose me???whose me???n again,who is real me???wanna find myself back,my life,my soul,my..i think that ive too many characters..sometimes i can be good girl.n sometimes,i can be bad bad real bad girl.when im doing bad things,i know its wrong,but im always trying to discard my feelings..my guilty feelings..watever la..n now, i really really damn need changed in myself..whos going to help me??n its a question again..??????

laziness

"malas nk blik uni"..that phrase always come to my mind rite now..really malas la nk blk uni coz i knew that it will loads of stuff that ive to do..i have to be ready for btq and chemistry presentation!!!what kind of man ill be..but now,im trying to neutralize my thought..i want it to be all positive..think positive vt..+ve,+ve and +ve..with the assignment that i still blur about it..can someone help me plz..help3..wargh!!!what kind of feeling is this??i feel so tense!!!face it vt,u can do it!!!(not nike's tagline,but i can apply it,just do it!!!:p really really need my self when i was in the third sem..i think that i quite tough in that sem..really want the old vt..but all i can do is just drive in my way..and with no clue where ill be going to..btw,my dad told me dad my atuk will give arwah su di mercedez to me..actually,quite big responsibilities and that both of them gave to me..i hope that i can take care of the car properly..insyaallah(dah brangan dah though x dpt g..hehe)but nways,ill really appreciate if i get the car..really do..its the car whre arwh su di and i had our time together..the car really has high centimental value..:((

new style..luv it so much

knoWS what,ive found new style or recipes..watever la..but last week,i went to the mid valley megamall..to do some shopp(like my partime job..lol)then ive ate a lot of different kind of food..i ate mee bandung and japanese tofu..it taste so fantastic!then start to shopp at jj je..hehe..then an hour after that,i can feels my hunger comes back and went to the ground floor of mid to look out for some food..then guess what???ive found takoyaki!!!the famous japanese food..i think.then i bought 3 prawn takoyaki for rm4.30..ok wut??then cant find the place to lepak2,so,just get in McD..sambil2 tu,i also get my long lost Oreo MCFlurry..lol..then just ate it with takoyaki..it taste a little bit muak,but then its can be telan la..and untill now im still thinking of the taste..lol..btw,takoyaki is the japanese food that made up tako,and then yaki means fried.so, takoyaki means fried tako..the takoyaki are filled with mayonaise,some cabbage,carrots and prawn/octopus inside it and the outer side,theres some fish flakes and some more mayonaise..what makes me a little shock is,when im trying eat it,ive notice that the fish flakes is moving..is it moving???i told my fren.she makes a kind of face..haha..afraid to eat the takoyaki..hehe..actually im just testing her,and thats wat my unc had done to me..he said that the fish flakes its not moving but it is just the effect from the heat inside the takoyaki..then,it comes with other scientific explanation..bla..bla..bla..we ate it and feeling so full..mlm tu plak,when we blk to cenfos uia,there sports carnival at the field..but im not intereted in it..i just love to watch,dont like to play sports..lol..then,after sampai in my room,i tried some combination of oreo biscuits with gardenia bread.its very match combination..its just like i made sndwich with oreo as the filled or as simple eg,just assume oreo act as tuna..lol