why???

wanna ask myself..why am i here,at cfs uia??why ive to study??why ive to do the tutorial??why ive to attend class??why ive to do presentation???why ive to be so stress??why ive to do what usual people do??is it myself???why??i cant answer my own question..plz la..rite now, i dont really know myself either..whose me???whose me???n again,who is real me???wanna find myself back,my life,my soul,my..i think that ive too many characters..sometimes i can be good girl.n sometimes,i can be bad bad real bad girl.when im doing bad things,i know its wrong,but im always trying to discard my feelings..my guilty feelings..watever la..n now, i really really damn need changed in myself..whos going to help me??n its a question again..??????