kawen pakse

warggggggghhhhhhhh!!!!tensyennye aku..nape la tensyen cam ni skali..seyes,aku rase cam x idop je.plizzz laa..kawen pakse tu satu,nk kne survirve dlm marriage ni,ya Allah,punyelah susah.but nothing easy in this mean world!hahaha..cakap senang laa..aku rase cycle idop aku same je.bgn pagi,tanpa memikirkan mase depan.mandi,n then pegi klas..lau klas bm tu menarik la jugak.coz ade sir chow kok kee..die sgt comel;)..tapi ble je sampai je klas core course aka husbands yg aku kne kawen pakse,memang..pergghhhh..pening!actually salah aku coz x pandai nk adapt some situation ngan cepat.contoh la kan,sem ni aku kne study style lain plak.PROBLEM BASED LEARNING.means that lecturer x kan mengajar.discuss among friends je.lau ade pape soalan,boleh tanye b4 midsem n b4 final je;).and just imagine la,my feeling as spoonfeed student for all this while.lost.cam cicak putus ekor.cam x de tmpat nk depends on.cam langit dah runtuh.cam monyet x de tmpat nk bergantung.cam baju x de tmpat nk gantung.cam anak itik hilang mak.cam x de broadband!ade plak..hahaha..dah2.emosi x stabil*wizard background*arrrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhh...im not makhlukhat.im just simple person yg susah sket nk trime ilmu.maybe sebab baynk dose n sometimes i just simply thought that ilmu is just for exam.such short minded person.bodoh.bodoh.bodoh.ape la aku ni.i need my life back.i want it back.SAYE X DE LIFE KAT CNI!tolongla..i really wanna stop living in this fantasy world.why i am like this???why?nande?purke?warggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh*nanges 1000 kali dah*mate dah cam kne sengat ngan tebuan:(.dah le dah start rabun balik.spek transformers plak susah nk cari!arghhh..watever la!bye!stop begging and nagging here.
ps:aku memang solute mathematicians.aku nk paham satu defition pn susah.yup.mmg susah.aku x tau camne aku terjerumus dlm kancah maths ni.argghhh.malas nk pkir..n sape2 yg ingt cts tu course yang low standard,ure totally nk mampos salah coz it is actually the real critical course other than medicine coz u have to understand,be creative and thinks out of the box compared to other course that required you to be memory machine if you want to succes.this cannot be done with mats.even khatam satu buku maths pun,but ure not fully combine with the soul of maths,u cant score in exam*except for certain makhlukhat(gifted person)*semua ini adalah luahan hati semata-mata dan x de mengena yg dah mati tapi kne mengena gak la ngan yang masih hidup;)..wargghhh..SAYE PUAS HATI SKANG.HILANG SATU KILO BEBAN;)

mood saye :( skang

owhhh....bersenang lenang dlm cuti slame ni useless coz bajet pass semua subject ar,x yah study!huahuhuahua..nmpaknye mimpi indah aku hancur ble tgk result sem 1 kat main camp.for the first time in uia,aku fail n kne repeat la kan????huahuhuahua..rase cam babun je!ni gara2 calculuz yg senang dmate susah nk mampos di otak..tgk,aku dah x btol..huahuhuahua..biar ar.aku duk dlm blek.parents aku x tau g result ni.n aku skang tgh mnaip kat cni..good daughter..ure right fatihah,express feeling dlu kat cni is the best way!hmmm...nape la aku x rase nk nanges ble fail ni?mungkin sebab aku ade geng?maybe la kan..but then,deep in my heart,chewah!aku rase cam it deserve me..coz deserve la kan fail with such many fool thing that what ive done.byk kot tuhan je tau..alahai..bedosenye.lau bende2 lagho byk lor,lotih toman nak explain cni..huhuhu..papepun aku harap aku boleh muhasabah la kan diri aku ni to be someone better,insyaAllah..but then,serious,aku x tau what kind of feeling ive now..cam sdeh pn ade..gamaknye,otak aku ngah blank la.cam x leh jawab exam tuh!its freezing with no feeling!emmm...dah2..saye sudah fail calculus.so,nanges cepat!!!;).but then,eventhough aku kne repeat,aku ikhlas tau.tu je aku mampu..aku x copy idea otak org len time exam or quiz..i swear!;)..n i hope that sape2 yg "ter"copy ans org len tu cepat2 la insaf..coz korg x fail sbb korg copy makhlukhat(ramai gak dlm klas aku otak supernatural)..is it called as victory?chewah,victory plak!nways,congratz sape yg dpt resultz "boom boom"(meletop2 cam mak aku goreng ikan rebus tuh)hahaha..x de laa..congrats ye!muhasabah diri le yg aku leh wat skang:(..e.ermmm...let me see ape yg aku kena kurangkan n improvekan sem ni;)
1)of coz la 2PM coz aku dah nk jadi die hard fan dah..but then,lau 2PM dtg kne spend gak mase g tgk diorg!hahaha
2)skype,chit chatting n swaktu dgnnye(assume as face to face lagi masyuk!)
3)kluar(tapi aku mmg x leh x kluar..nk2 atok aku nk bg kete ble entah ni..n ntah bg ke idak ngan result aku cam superbbb nih!)tp kluar should not be the reason why i failed)
4)focus dlm klas..ye!kne focus n lau bleh phmkan tros dlm klas.jgn pospone2:(
5)constant study..hari2 mau study maa..at least x bebankan hari kemudian as in hari exam la kan..
6)bykkan solat taubat dan solat sunat..
7)spend time kat tmpat yg aku rase blh study,study dgn selesanya!ooyeahhhh!
8)since aku minat 2PM je n x terinvolve lagi dlm kancah drama korea,hope that aku x terinvolve la kan..huhu..tp ade je die hard fan ar drama korea..ok je pointer..dah idup die tu je kan.korean n study.blh la..aku ni,study g,shopping g,lepak g,2 pm g,chit chatting g,fb g,semua g la.cam girls generation nye lagu tu..gee gee gee..2pm pun penah nyanyi gak lagu tu ngan other group..tgk2!
9)trime seadanye ur lecturer..be good to them n have good perception about them;)
10)aku rase makan byk pn effect la..haha..ade plak..ermm..aku rase ade coz ble makan byk,duit kuar pn byk,dah namenye boros,ikut perangai syaitan..x elok..ok2,mulai skang aku makan satu meal je mlm..huahuahua
11)exercise..seriously,i really need exercise damn much!n aku harap sem ni aku blh jogging or cycling every weekend at least.
12)stop thinking that"this is not the right time to study".honestly,i do have such kind of blablabla...
hope tu je la..byk bende nk kne improve.yeah..im human nways..ye la,lau monyet yg slau dok ngurat aku tepi tingkap tu,nk curi makanan je keje die..x de keje len dah..dah tau dah..seb baek aku x tolak terjun dr level 4 je..takot geng2 monyet2 spot blek aku plak nnti.dah2 merepeknye nek!erm..nk g awal sket.dlm 11 aibln dah btolak.sampai awal,kemas blek awal.study awal?insyaAllah..