kawen pakse

warggggggghhhhhhhh!!!!tensyennye aku..nape la tensyen cam ni skali..seyes,aku rase cam x idop je.plizzz laa..kawen pakse tu satu,nk kne survirve dlm marriage ni,ya Allah,punyelah susah.but nothing easy in this mean world!hahaha..cakap senang laa..aku rase cycle idop aku same je.bgn pagi,tanpa memikirkan mase depan.mandi,n then pegi klas..lau klas bm tu menarik la jugak.coz ade sir chow kok kee..die sgt comel;)..tapi ble je sampai je klas core course aka husbands yg aku kne kawen pakse,memang..pergghhhh..pening!actually salah aku coz x pandai nk adapt some situation ngan cepat.contoh la kan,sem ni aku kne study style lain plak.PROBLEM BASED LEARNING.means that lecturer x kan mengajar.discuss among friends je.lau ade pape soalan,boleh tanye b4 midsem n b4 final je;).and just imagine la,my feeling as spoonfeed student for all this while.lost.cam cicak putus ekor.cam x de tmpat nk depends on.cam langit dah runtuh.cam monyet x de tmpat nk bergantung.cam baju x de tmpat nk gantung.cam anak itik hilang mak.cam x de broadband!ade plak..hahaha..dah2.emosi x stabil*wizard background*arrrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhh...im not makhlukhat.im just simple person yg susah sket nk trime ilmu.maybe sebab baynk dose n sometimes i just simply thought that ilmu is just for exam.such short minded person.bodoh.bodoh.bodoh.ape la aku ni.i need my life back.i want it back.SAYE X DE LIFE KAT CNI!tolongla..i really wanna stop living in this fantasy world.why i am like this???why?nande?purke?warggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh*nanges 1000 kali dah*mate dah cam kne sengat ngan tebuan:(.dah le dah start rabun balik.spek transformers plak susah nk cari!arghhh..watever la!bye!stop begging and nagging here.
ps:aku memang solute mathematicians.aku nk paham satu defition pn susah.yup.mmg susah.aku x tau camne aku terjerumus dlm kancah maths ni.argghhh.malas nk pkir..n sape2 yg ingt cts tu course yang low standard,ure totally nk mampos salah coz it is actually the real critical course other than medicine coz u have to understand,be creative and thinks out of the box compared to other course that required you to be memory machine if you want to succes.this cannot be done with mats.even khatam satu buku maths pun,but ure not fully combine with the soul of maths,u cant score in exam*except for certain makhlukhat(gifted person)*semua ini adalah luahan hati semata-mata dan x de mengena yg dah mati tapi kne mengena gak la ngan yang masih hidup;)..wargghhh..SAYE PUAS HATI SKANG.HILANG SATU KILO BEBAN;)

mood saye :( skang

owhhh....bersenang lenang dlm cuti slame ni useless coz bajet pass semua subject ar,x yah study!huahuhuahua..nmpaknye mimpi indah aku hancur ble tgk result sem 1 kat main camp.for the first time in uia,aku fail n kne repeat la kan????huahuhuahua..rase cam babun je!ni gara2 calculuz yg senang dmate susah nk mampos di otak..tgk,aku dah x btol..huahuhuahua..biar ar.aku duk dlm blek.parents aku x tau g result ni.n aku skang tgh mnaip kat cni..good daughter..ure right fatihah,express feeling dlu kat cni is the best way!hmmm...nape la aku x rase nk nanges ble fail ni?mungkin sebab aku ade geng?maybe la kan..but then,deep in my heart,chewah!aku rase cam it deserve me..coz deserve la kan fail with such many fool thing that what ive done.byk kot tuhan je tau..alahai..bedosenye.lau bende2 lagho byk lor,lotih toman nak explain cni..huhuhu..papepun aku harap aku boleh muhasabah la kan diri aku ni to be someone better,insyaAllah..but then,serious,aku x tau what kind of feeling ive now..cam sdeh pn ade..gamaknye,otak aku ngah blank la.cam x leh jawab exam tuh!its freezing with no feeling!emmm...dah2..saye sudah fail calculus.so,nanges cepat!!!;).but then,eventhough aku kne repeat,aku ikhlas tau.tu je aku mampu..aku x copy idea otak org len time exam or quiz..i swear!;)..n i hope that sape2 yg "ter"copy ans org len tu cepat2 la insaf..coz korg x fail sbb korg copy makhlukhat(ramai gak dlm klas aku otak supernatural)..is it called as victory?chewah,victory plak!nways,congratz sape yg dpt resultz "boom boom"(meletop2 cam mak aku goreng ikan rebus tuh)hahaha..x de laa..congrats ye!muhasabah diri le yg aku leh wat skang:(..e.ermmm...let me see ape yg aku kena kurangkan n improvekan sem ni;)
1)of coz la 2PM coz aku dah nk jadi die hard fan dah..but then,lau 2PM dtg kne spend gak mase g tgk diorg!hahaha
2)skype,chit chatting n swaktu dgnnye(assume as face to face lagi masyuk!)
3)kluar(tapi aku mmg x leh x kluar..nk2 atok aku nk bg kete ble entah ni..n ntah bg ke idak ngan result aku cam superbbb nih!)tp kluar should not be the reason why i failed)
4)focus dlm klas..ye!kne focus n lau bleh phmkan tros dlm klas.jgn pospone2:(
5)constant study..hari2 mau study maa..at least x bebankan hari kemudian as in hari exam la kan..
6)bykkan solat taubat dan solat sunat..
7)spend time kat tmpat yg aku rase blh study,study dgn selesanya!ooyeahhhh!
8)since aku minat 2PM je n x terinvolve lagi dlm kancah drama korea,hope that aku x terinvolve la kan..huhu..tp ade je die hard fan ar drama korea..ok je pointer..dah idup die tu je kan.korean n study.blh la..aku ni,study g,shopping g,lepak g,2 pm g,chit chatting g,fb g,semua g la.cam girls generation nye lagu tu..gee gee gee..2pm pun penah nyanyi gak lagu tu ngan other group..tgk2!
9)trime seadanye ur lecturer..be good to them n have good perception about them;)
10)aku rase makan byk pn effect la..haha..ade plak..ermm..aku rase ade coz ble makan byk,duit kuar pn byk,dah namenye boros,ikut perangai syaitan..x elok..ok2,mulai skang aku makan satu meal je mlm..huahuahua
11)exercise..seriously,i really need exercise damn much!n aku harap sem ni aku blh jogging or cycling every weekend at least.
12)stop thinking that"this is not the right time to study".honestly,i do have such kind of blablabla...
hope tu je la..byk bende nk kne improve.yeah..im human nways..ye la,lau monyet yg slau dok ngurat aku tepi tingkap tu,nk curi makanan je keje die..x de keje len dah..dah tau dah..seb baek aku x tolak terjun dr level 4 je..takot geng2 monyet2 spot blek aku plak nnti.dah2 merepeknye nek!erm..nk g awal sket.dlm 11 aibln dah btolak.sampai awal,kemas blek awal.study awal?insyaAllah..

Protein Data Bank(PDB)

This picture shows 5 combination of protein molecular structure.



It consist of:
1)Classification: Hydrolase
Structure Weight: 45734.80
Polymer: 1 Type: polypeptide(L) Length: 197
Chains: A, B

2)Classification: Transferase/rna
Structure Weight: 57345.33
Molecule: 3D polymerase
Polymer: 1 Type: polypeptide(L) Length: 476
Chains: A
Type: polyribonucleotide Length: 7
Chains: B

3)Classification: Transferase/rna
Structure Weight: 56838.88
Molecule: 3D polymerase
Polymer: 1 Type: polypeptide(L) Length: 476
Chains: A
Polymer: 2 Type: polyribonucleotide Length: 6
Chains: B
Polymer: 3 Type: polyribonucleotide Length: 4
Chains: C

4)Classification: Hydrolase
Structure Weight: 50432.88
Molecule: MTA/SAH nucleosidase
Polymer: 1 Type: polypeptide(L) Length: 234


5)Classification: Hydrolase
Structure Weight: 45996.32
Molecule: DNA mismatch repair protein mutL
Polymer: 1 Type: polypeptide(L) Length: 197
Chains: A, B

first ramadhan

ari ni first day puase.actually dah nk masuk 2 dah..brape jam je g..:)smlm mmg gle2 nye penat.sampai x g trawih..ya Allah,cmne la agaknye slase next week.mintak2 la x penat sgt till otak pn rase cam x btol.credits to akeen coz really supporting me.ble ak ckp x g trawih tu,shes the one that really understand me.x mcm some people yg rase ak ni trok sgt sbb x g trawih.nways,bln puase ni kan,ill apologized them and wat2 cam nothing happens eventhough sgt la trase..really2 homesick.nk blk sgt.nk bukak puase ngan family.huhu..tadi bukak puase ngan roti n ruski je.mls nk turun ke kafe dr level 4 n plus another 500 m..huhu..wonder if my parent knows this.confem kne marah.asal la along ni pemalas sgt.but then,x de mood kan??ari ni gak ak rase trokk sgt2.rase cam x penah g klas plak.i failed in no theory quiz!33/100.cam bodoh je kan?tapi kne la trime kebodohan ni as cabaran untk jadi pandai cam org len.seyes,its not worth it at all.cam x study plak.but then,kne la trime since x ley ubah ape2 dh.midsem nnti,insyaAllah ill improves.try la revise blk memory ni kan.wonder what ive done smpai kuiz trok camni skali.and finally, i think i knew it.byk sgt lepak kot.hang out every weekend.x de minggu pn yg ak x kuar n x blk.every week mesti lepak mane.n now,rase sgt bsyukur x dpt kete.lau x,im so sure that ill not be in mahallah most of the time.merayap je keje..huhu..so,di bln puase yg penuh barakah ni,ak rase ak nk capai aim bln lps2:
1)bace Quran as much as i can
2)g trawih as much as i can gak(even fisrt trawih pn dah trmiss,but then,ill try my best to fullfill the other trawih unless ade reason pompuan la kan?)
3)sahur hari-hari coz lau x sahur,my mom will bisng2
4)study tu biar berkualiti,not kuantiti anymore since mase di bln puase ni begitu singkat..
5)less gle2.wat penat je jadi gle2 bln2 pose nih..hehe
6)kurangkan bcakap bende2 yg x de pekdah..contohnye,kdg2 ade gak ak terlaser sket mulut nih.x brmaksud pn.senang cte,kurangkan cakap skit la..
exam is just around the corner.the only way that i could do is just study and pray..really hope that ill get bless from Allah in this holy month.ya Allah,bantulah hambamu yg lemah ini..amin...:)

JOURNEY OF LIFE....

Hi!Im Fatihah and now, I'm closer to my 20th of age. Throughout this 20 years since I was born, I have been through a lot of experiences which taught me a lot..ya, I think that I can now accept what people said about experience is the best teacher..It feels like yesterday,I was an innocent children that have to learn everything because everything seems new to me..and now, I am already a university student and still working hard to be perfect adult..insyaAllah, I will do..in this stage, I feel like I am strong enough that I could face all of the ups and downs in my life..where i have to accept the faith life..for many years, I have to struggle in my studies in my primary, secondary school and now, I have to work harder to achieve my dreams in life, that is more vital I think.In this years of studies,studies and studies, I think that sometimes, im at the top and sometimes, im at the bottom..It means that, sometimes,im able to get good result, and sometimes,i got bad result which made me feel so down.but then, those experience taught me that we cannot feel so comfortable and proud of what we have because sometimes, it may turn out to be a nightmare in our life :(.. but that's life,isnt it?

arrival to kuantan

erm..ari ni my family and i dh smpai kat kuantan.so.esok kne la msk uia blk..as a student..wah3.dah dkt 5 bln x de status,tp skang dah tukar blk my status that is a student..esok pagi2 lagi kne pi uia coz register kol 8.30..so,kne la sampai awal sket..although ari ni mmg ari yg tough for me..2 probs that comes serentak..first2 rase sedey sgt coz my late uncle x ley join for my regis.lau x,mmg die yg organise semua.i goyang kaki je pegi uia.so,pg td pi la mlawat kubur die..mmg sebak gle kott..tahan je la..nk wat camna kan..Allah knows the best..pastu yg second tu mmg mls nk sebut..never met people yg x mgaku salah die n i think he even realize yg die wat salah.salah org nampk je.tu la manusia.kdg2 salah org laen nmpak plak.salah die x nmpak.so,any guys yg bce blog ni..think TWICE before you KAWEN SATU LAGI aka poligami la.. mls dah nk pk psl org tuh..bbalikpade regis esok..esok le i bleh update plak psl first day kat campus..new campus,new room,new environment maybe new frens..hope that i really can adapt myself to all new kind of things..;)

well,since dah lame dok kat umah ni,about 5 months i think, cam mlas lak nk p continue my studies kat kuantan.but then,study kne study gak.x kan la ak jd penganggur trhormat lak.cuti ni x la rase boring tahap gle2 gaban sgt ak rase coz my day mmg full of keje.cam bibik pn ade gak keje ak .tapi better la dr ak dok goyang kaki cam badak dok tunggu nk berendam ka?(ade ke?)..bkn bibik gak la.campur2.kdg2 bibik n kadang driver mam2 bsr..my mom n adik2.x pe la kan.wat amal skali skale..byk yg ak blaja from cuti ni.bkn theory tau!ni pasl idup.from cuti ni ak dah dpt discover yg kte x ley jadi selfish sgt.maksud ak,jgn merajuk x bertempat.tp tu la ak.suke mrajuk ngan abah.huhu..konon2 nk tunjuk manje2 la.kte x tau ape yg die pk.actually,others sometimes dont want to express their probs kat kte.but then,ble kte tambah masalah diorg dgn merajuk or watever,sometimes it will make them burst n kluar abih la semua masalah die tu kat kte.then,dr situ br kte rase bsalah n sedar that weve done wrong.ape ak tulis ni.biarla.ak sorng je pn yg phm.so,moral of da story,jgn suke marajuk...hmmm..hari ni genap sbulan b4 g kuantan campus.uia gak la kan?tp x prepare pe pn g!huhuhuhu..cam mls lak,seriously.actually ak x suke wat keje last minute.but sometimes environment forces..cheh,btol ke?since dh lame ak x msk klas eng ni,mmg bkarat ijau la kan?hmmm...ak takot sbenanye.ye la,dh lame x deal ngan org other than my family.kwn2 pn jrg2 kan.well,i ni kan family first pape pn..hehe..takot gak my communication skill nnti cmne.mmg confem sure lagi pasti akn byk tahap gaban n otomen presentation.huhu..kne la sabo ye Fatihah oi..pape pn ble kte pk +ve,semua bende jalan....prinsip ak gak tuh."alwayz be +ve".tp biasenye ak ni byk -venye..huhu..ape yg ak dah prepare eh?lets wat check list
1:print pape yg perlu print?CHECK!
2:gambar pasport cun ak?
3:buku mane nk bwk?
4:my needs?
5:bukak account?
6:byr rm310?
7:ptptn?
dah2.ni btr 7 kot,satu je yg dh check!huhu..ble la nak wat semo nih..tp kne wat la gak b4 next month.ak x kesah la sape nk p antar ak asal my parents ade.they very precious to me..lau la parents ak bace nih..cheh!bajet diorg trharu n bg duit lbey skat la tuh!haihhh...stop2 mengarut.but then sincerely,i really want to see them happy.although my abah n ma,both of them ade sakitnye.my abah kne diabetes n my ma plak x brape chat.hope that they always be strong for their anak2 sume.luv u both..xoxo..hope also that abah tbukak hati nk p check clinique.wonder if im working.for sure ak beli alat test gule dlm darah.hehe..bebuih dah mulut dok nasehat pi klinik.mane la nk dgr..rase cam nk bg ubat tdo n angkat p klinik je..haih!mintak2 la kan..bkn nk jd ank durhaka,tp anak yg concern n love u so much!ok la,org yg kuno ni br nk smbung cte jepun,hanakimi..adios!

su di

hari ni-3 april 2010.genap stahun since my late uncle meninggal that is on 3rd april 2009.i think i really can recall what was happen on the that day..i really bare it in my mind..still fresh..su di.ble ive got phone calls and message asking this n that about su di.i still remember that ive send him a message.its the last message ive send him n i got the replied message from him where ive deleted it..damn!i really regret!why i spontaneously deleted his message though ive realize someting weird with the message.he type his last word to me.."beyeh jah yah"..its about 12.30 pm..about an hour+++ before he had the accident that takes his soul away from this world...he's so kind coz he never said no to me altough he's busy..for him,everything is ok if its about me.he's like father to me.treat me like his own daughter since he has no child.really miss his caring n fatherly....but then,really sorry that sometimes,i feel that u are still here..many times ive dreamt about u.su di hidup balik,that is not logic at at all..but then,it happens to me..really sorry coz i cant sedekahkan al-fatihah selalu.coz sometimes i really dont feel that uve gone forever.betapa bdosanya..ya Allah..tolong la hambamu yg alpa dan leka ini..berilah hidayah pada hambamu ini..:(

my last sem at cfs

last week was my last sem at cfs iium,insyaAllah..n i reealize that about 1 1/2 ive been studied there.ive been going trough 4 long sem and a short sem there..theres many happy n sad memories that ive been trough..erm..let me make short rewind what had already happened since ive been studied there..0n 22 june 2009, it was the first time where i came here as a student bcoz usually i just followed my late uncle to his office as visitor...that day,my dad,my grandparent,my aunt n uncle came to send me at cfs n really sad coz my mum cant join them bcoz she was just deliver my eldest sister,aikha :(..i just be a student that started to learn everything from zero n get new experience since ive never been in hostel before coz im not a student from boarding school or what..just common sek men keb..but never mind..everyone is the same there..they're in same place n same class,same standard..so,nothing to be ashamed of rite?in first sem,i just trying to make myself comfortable with the environment that ive never had before n alhamdulillah,its going well..but then,i cant get the pointer that can be proud of..a bit sad n regret.in second sem,i think i can finally makes myself comfortable with the environment although ive to change mahallah n rumets..but then luckily ive got awesome rumets..:)..my pointer rises since i think ive struggle hard to reach at the stage..really thanked to Allah..third sem,once again,ive got new rumets.all of them are second year students.but then i feel really comfortable with them..they treat me well n sometimes ive the chance to be a little bit pampered..lol..n during dis sem also,ive been going trough real hard moment where i lost my beloved uncle..su di..my father eldest brother.dont want to talk much about that since it will makes me finally cry while writing this..alhamdulillah,once again,my pointer rises n i think its a miracle from Allah coz eventhough i skip some class,n missed in lot things,i still get the pointer that can be proud of..:)..then,my forth sem..erm..i think its just normal n nothing special about the sem..n last week,ive finish up my last sem at cfs,that is my fifth sem.really..really sad to left cfs n my awesome classmate..but then,whatever it is,ive to accept it..it is the place that left a lot of memories of my uncle..the cafe,his office that is the place that i love to hang out..the ice cream..the ayam kfc n all that..its really...............erm..but then, ill always pay a visit to cfs someday..i really dont want the memories with him fades away...n finally,i want to write about my awesome classmate..seriously,theyre so awesome, kind n....my besties,anis,akeen n syaraf..n more..:)..they're really supportive n positive..lol..dont know what to describe about them..but then our ukhuwah between class members in dis last sem is sooo strong n i hope that it will last forever n ever..insyaAllah..n now,ill having very long long holiday coz maybe ill enter kuantan on june insyaAllah..hope ill get gud result..amin..n now,im thinking about taking part time job,but then i dont know how to get started..but ill try la..:)

acid n base???

what's the meaning of acid n base??i think most people even my std 4 sis can answer the question..but then,when it comes to buffer,acid base titration,it will be more complicated as i thought it so for this time being..its so confusing.ive read the notes many times,i think,but it is still not stick to my memory..not exactly rite coz i more prefer understanding than memorizing.i really hate it when ive to memorize something without knowing why i have to do so.in this case,i know the steps to solve the equation,but then,i really have no clue what im doing..its just like i just know the steps to the question,but cant explain further why im using this n that.to make it simpler,it can be assume as short term memory..hate it!!i really need to study n make the topic to be as simple as possible like i did in equilibrium chapter.ill still remember some of the thing that ive created the formula t0 memorize n understand.i shud minimizing my on9 hour like fb,ym,blogging n watever lg that mkes me more "lagho"..=p..dah2..nk study adios~~~

why???

wanna ask myself..why am i here,at cfs uia??why ive to study??why ive to do the tutorial??why ive to attend class??why ive to do presentation???why ive to be so stress??why ive to do what usual people do??is it myself???why??i cant answer my own question..plz la..rite now, i dont really know myself either..whose me???whose me???n again,who is real me???wanna find myself back,my life,my soul,my..i think that ive too many characters..sometimes i can be good girl.n sometimes,i can be bad bad real bad girl.when im doing bad things,i know its wrong,but im always trying to discard my feelings..my guilty feelings..watever la..n now, i really really damn need changed in myself..whos going to help me??n its a question again..??????